Two days ago...

The raining day today slightly steal my mood to remember of him. Yesterday, my bestie told me that she was confirmed that I have crush on him. Blushed! Have to admit it. Wonder how he thinks of me? Is this the end of us or the new beginning? I have so many questions in my mind and really hope that miracle will happen. I dunno why my sixth sense keep on telling me that “this guy have something special on me”. I can sense that.

I have two options with me; either continue to miss him or forget him straight away. People’s heart is made of meat. To get rid him of my memory deemed quite hard. How long time do I need to spend?

The Days after moving...

After the last day of working day, he came for once; the only one time. That's the last time I saw him until today. Hardly to admit, yes, miss him quite a lot. I never knew moving house is a terribly tiring job. Until, this is the first time where I have to pack all my goods for moving to two houses. What to do, the room readily available here is like a small "chicken cage" or more like a store room for people to keep their things rather than for me to use as rooms for sleeping.

Two days ago when I moved home, I can see that my car was too or overly packed with things to bring home. So sorry to "tengking" my mum that day as it is really hectic. Thank God my sis corrected me on the spot and I shall remember this attitude all the time as a lesson not to be rude to her again.

Only then I realised that it had been a long time I didn't feel family warmth again. Family means that everyone have to present and live together and no one shall be missed. When I'm at home, visiting my uncle (the only uncle that pampered me the most), grandma and other relatives, the sense of warmth can be felt when everyone joke jovially while eating mangos teen. That time, no matter how tired you are, truthfully you will stay awake to join the crowd of warmth.

Staying in city for years, I realise the my "kindness" and "generosity" gradually escape from me. When I see my grandma, I felt very guilty for unable to look after her as well as my mum. How many years more can they live? I asked myself. I'm not filial at all. What can I do?

Last Day..

A strange feeling today when I got to know that tomorrow is the last day for my dad's shop operating. Last time, I doubt my sixth sense not to be accurate but sincerely, I found out that it is becoming more useful and more accurate, maybe because of influences.

Fate is sometime a very funny thing to describe. This cute guy, I shall give him a name 'B' is actually a cute guy that I met two years ago. Nothing attracts me, but I admit he is adorable. Whenever I tried to forget him and focuses on new target, he will suddenly pop up in my life. It seems like irresistible. I am so not sure whether my sixth sense this time will work perfectly but i got the sense that he likes me but dare not to voice out.

Tomorrow will be my last day to stay here and I don't know whether this is going to be the end for both of use or a humble new beginning. My mood tuned so low and it is actually quite sad to get to know cant see him anymore after this...

Fate likes to fool people. Whenever I tried to forget him, this guy will appear in front of me. Whenever I was in my worst mood of everything, he will appear and initially took my 'frust' away at the place I never thought of he will appear.

Now, I wonder...started to feel insecure since perhaps I can't see him anymore. Does he has the same feeling on me or I'm the only one who 'tepuk tangan sebelah'...Really wish I could get an answer or even give me a try; as long as he voiced out...

Positive Thinking

Lesson of the day, I still remember clearly that once I read an interesting article about a lecturer was teaching in a hall. The story began with the lecturer introduce himself to the class and use an interesting ice breaker joke to break the intense atmosphere. The whole class laugh non stop and he repeated the same joke to the students. This time, some of the students laugh meanwhile some remained silent. For the third time, he repeated the same joke to the class and this time, non of the students was laughing. Soon, the student's began to ask the lecturer, why did you keep on telling the same joke? The same joke won't work for twice. The class remained silent and the lecturer began to question that why people can keep on crying and sad over the same thing / issue that had happened but not keep on laughing over the same joke?

What I wanted to say was we all should learn to be more positive. Instead of thinking how bad people have been treating us, it is better for us to jot down every wonderful and happy moments. We will be more happy and it will be easier for us to handle coming challenges. Life will be great indeed!!

Mr.Right

I got to know him for more than year. Looks quite and reserved, I didn't really pay attention on him until one day he drank too much beer (I think), his attitude changed from seemed like an introvert to totally extrovert. Undeniably, looks cute too.

Although fooled by him, I do not think I'm not as brave as other girls who dare to flirt with him. It seems like we are playing "mental challenge game-to test once patience). I know he observe me for sometime and I bet he did.

Sometimes, I really wonder why his skin is even better than some girls. Very clean shaved and look soft. I wonder if he use special facial care products..Hmmm... and I love his tattoo ^^

Hopefully something might happen this time..

BRag

Yesterday, I witnessed a gang of guy consist of different age group. But I never guessed that most of them already get married. Their topic? Quite interesting. Many people know that when a guy visit Thai without gf and wife always, it means something.

One of the guy says that his gf always control in everything he did. From drinking to everything. Another guy says that he always behave the same when he visited Bangkok. Drink, clubbing and etc eventhough wife is following. Cause he says he wanted to proof to his wife that  he is still the same w or w/out her presence. Means he won't change. If wife wanted to follow, let her follow until she get bored.

Hmmm....I wonder how would gals response when heard that?

What's wrong with me??

“Bad Boy” a song sung by A-Mei, a Taiwanese artist is true enough to show that girls are more likely to attract to bad guys rather than good ones. Undeniably, they are really good in catching our attention. I spotted him for some time but not really have a good chance to start conversation with him. He looks so shy and quiet when I first met him. And I was proved that I was wrong until that day he fooled me in front of his colleagues..Hmmm…Sure angry larr + so embarrassing…I can’t work properly after that… But, he laugh and laugh and still laughing for my “serious+naïve”..Arghh…Then he asked his colleagues to ask quite a few questions and I can say most of it, I do not have the intention to answer honestly…

Few days later (still laughing), calling me again..Become phobia liao to see him. Heart beat becoming faster and if possible, I would like to avoid him. What’s wrong with me??