Sharin of 3 Lil Gentleman

Hmm...Today I want to share some thought on guys I have met. Recently only I realise that I have very low self-confidence on love issues. That's why until today, do not dare to made any moves. Or should I say that I prefer to wait guys to make their first move? Or guys nowadays prefer more aggressive gals? Perhaps...

I have been wondering for a long time for how a guy "signalling" a gal to show that he is really interested. Here, I have three samples which shows symptoms or not at all (or maybe perasan)...

Let's name first guy, T. Knew him for one year. My first impression towards him was not so good. A sarcastic speaking guy who get on my nerve sarcastically. Gradually, the impression gone when it was substitute with kindness. T is actually a very kind and gentleman. The only guy whom I seriously considering his invitation. Yes, we went out for a day trip and it ends awkward. But, it shows he is more gentleman. Keeping entertaining in case I got bored. Any girls which good boyfriend who is fulfilling to endless destination, he is the one. When working, could sense, feel or see at the corner of the eyes that someone is actually observing you. Am not sure whether is for good or other way round. During my birthday celebration, he sang Birthday song in Korean. Word to describe: Kind, Creative, Gentlemen.

Second guy, will named him S. This shy guy is actually quite an introvert. He will not share more or close to you unless somebody make the first move. Well, I don't really know how this chemistry happened. The rumors get us closer eventually. Due to the rumors, he dated me out for lunch even often and even chatted more during office hours. A very cute guy who started to learn to joke. Teach me to be patient and emotional control. A very nice guy who never kills any living being. Somehow, whenever I need help, he will be the first one to volunteer himself. Eg, need somebody to fetch me to service centre to pick up my car. He did that although need to OT. Word to describe: Kind, Lovely, Soft-hearted.

Third guy, is the guy that fulfil most requirements, named him D. If looking for perfect boyfriend, he will certainly be in list. Yes, cannot resist his sweet and adorable smile. Shy and sweet guy with booming career. I knew his existence but never remembers his name. Too bad, huh. I never expected that the guy drove me to concert will be him. A huge surprise. Eventually, the concert brings us closer. Through the concert only I knew he is the guy with guitar. Love it! A memorable one.

Well, just a little sharing that this three people made some prints. Of course I know it doesn't mean anything cause am hasty type that will lead to no good ends..

Blue blue Sky..

Oh, Valentine is coming. A very special day yet nobody beside me. Supposedly today is a special day, yet it turns out to be not what I thought of.

I have been wondering that is there something wrong with my sixth sense? I knew this guy for some time. One word to fully describe him "kind" ness. That's the main attractiveness that I did not see in other guys. I guess, he didn't know that this is his main strengths.

For the first time when I saw him, his sarcastic-ness really pissed me off. Swear that during that time I need to keep this guy away. Certainly not my cup of tea. Well, human is weird, and I need to keep back my words. I saw his heart which was beautifully made and I do not know how to describe it.

Yes, he attracted me and my sixth sense is telling me that this guy left some space for me. But, am I thinking too much?

Is it that hard to find a guy who can touched the bottom of my with with joy, laughter and tears? The person who can see what type of "card" I am playing, who is ever brave enough?

不快乐的之中的快乐

我一直都相信 “苦中带甜” 的道理。今天总算给我遇到了。可是我的是 “不快乐中带点甜”。原来，好人是那么难当的。那天，发出内心要帮满好友却得到 “FFK" 的下场， 要求他人帮忙也没了。破坏我的计划。。。。

心情糟糕的我带着不愉快的心情去上班。同时，我的“阿头” 带了一瓶大城市最出名的糖果。看到了它，什么气都消了。多姿多彩又多口味的糖果真的让人舍不得把它吃了。

原来简单的糖果跟他人一起分享也是一种小小的快乐。可惜，我有一位臭嘴的同事不懂得珍惜。原谅他吧！

今天我体会到生活有可能有很多不完美的地方，千万别气馁。应为过程当中会有一线光照着我们，带出许多欢喜更快乐。。加油吧！！

Arghh

My life as a student finally ended. It is the time for me to move into new stage of my life. Although this New Year I didn't have time to enjoy much because of assignment's datelines, I felt quite contented because I have fully completed the course. Hopefully I can pull through my final semester.

I feel so pathetic and started to doubt the definition of "f.r.i.e.n.d.s" in my dictionary when my sister's incident took place. She has less friends but those few close friends are so close until they shared the joy and laughter during that precious week holiday. Those are things I could see when they took turns to each others houses sharing all kinds of activities, 38 news, cards, movies and etc.

Then I compared with what I got this year. I dated my friends to go out and the outcomes of course I do not wish to explain. I always knew family is important but numerous occasion took place. Is it something wrong with my interest, topic and bla bla bla which made them feel rejected or boring or I really didn't even worth a penny to share about. OMG....Yes, I'm here to ask 1001 question and to relieve dissatisfaction. Coz I know she wont read about this. Really got fed up and boring when I heard friends asking me to go out 'padahal' I'm not in locally but when I was home, "kentut" pun tak rak....

It seems like my close friends are not even close to me at all. With their numerous excuses and "lap" me aside really made me annoyed. Pretty annoyed caused this incident did not happen for first time and willno be last time as well.

Book of Attraction

One day, when I am on my way back from college, I heard a DJ in radio talking about "Law of Attraction". I really wonder what is that until a girl tell her experience that it is a attitude of controlling one's mind and thinking. Amazed, i do nothing but the title itself was well remembered.

My curiosity tell me that I should get a chance to do some research on it. I want the book!! One day I found the book by accident. Law of attraction really works on me.Is this called Law of Attraction that attracts what I wanted. Usually, I fail to find any books that I really want all the time. The book appear itself in front of me just in few days. Does that mean that if we have the will to want something, it will appear?

Tortoise

When we grew order, like it or not, problems will increase as well. That time, we need to learn "give and take" as part of our life. I always thought that life is either black or white. In reality, most of our life are coloured in grey. No matter you like it or not, the learning process of receiving newborns as well as whom you beloved was leaving you. Can't believe it my beloved pet; tortoise who doesn't speak, act or even play can tuned my emo level drastically.

I had always love to have tortoise as one type of my pet. Of course, I'm not 100% pet lover. Somehow, tortoise placed second after dogs. As wished, my parents granted my wish on 2011 when they allow me to keep two tortoises. I named it Jackpot and McFee. Both tortoise are really naughty brat who keep bullying each other. Like Ninja turtle, they got stunts like spider and etc. Most of the time, they managed to keep customers in my parents shop entertained and they love to see a lot people.. Weird kudos.

Yesterday evening, as usual, I fed them with their food. But I can't see Jackpot moving. That hyperactive brat is motionless even though I keep on tickling  his body. His feet and neck are well stretched. I thought he was dead. After discussing with mum, I decided to bury him. This brat is playing prank and swim nicely in his pool.

This morning, I send all my tortoises Jackpot, Mcfee and Unnamed tortoise for release in temple. I thought I was pretty okay but somehow when the moment I release it into the pond, the feeling of sobbing, heartache came. I MISS all of them. All of them are cute enough and painted a tiny bit in my heart. I felt so sorry to let them go...Just in a minute time, I saw a tortoise laying eggs in that pond. I saw new living beings (tortoise) about to come here. Touched...

A journey to remember for my lovely dogs

I'm so blessed that I have pets at home. On 6 August 2008, these two lovely puppies born in my uncle's house. My sister named it Xiao Bai (White) and Xiao Hei (Black) which is not exactly their own colour. My Xiao Bai is milky white with light brown patches on his body meanwhile my Xiao Hei is totally brown in colour. No doubt this two sibling dogs are unique in its own way. I still remember when both puppies are three months old, Xiao Bai fell sick until nearly lost his life due to continuous vomiting and diarrhea around one week. Thinking that he was not going to life longer, I took him home so that he can he can pass away peacefully beside Xiao Hei. To my surprise, both pups touched my heart deeply when both of them see each other, the strong feeling of brotherhood. They were happily hanging around and eventually Xiao Bai sickness cured amazingly. 

Everything went fine these few years. Both puppies grew up to be big dogs and brings laughter and joy to my family. They are as naughty as other dogs; urinating around, mess up with newspapers by biting it into smaller pieces all over the house, pull longer clothes and bed sheet for himself to sleep on, hiding one side of shoes or slippers in hard to find places and etc...Sounds pretty annoyed but sweet enough. 

Xiao Bai favourite spot to rest during mid-day

Early this year after Chinese New Year Eve, Xiao Bai fell sick again after tremendous fire crakers show for days. When my sister left to KL to help my parents, my brother called one day to inform us that Xiao Bai nearly pass away. In less than one week, a meaty and fleshy dog changed to skinny dog because he was unable to eat and drink. My sister cried when she knew that and rush back urgently from KL back home just to wish to see him for the last time. Guess what?? She got really emotional as both dogs are part of her organs. She even dare to swore to switch her lives with her dogs. Maybe her sincerity touched God and once again, Xiao Bai cured amazingly.

 New family members: Lobok Zai

Two months ago, my brother brought back a greyish (rats colour) dog back home and named him Lobok Zai (a.k.a Carrot Baby). This name suits this lovely pup so much as he was hyper active, restless all the time and eat non-stop. I'm getting eager to see him when I got to know this new family member coming. At last, I got the opportunity to see him during some occasions which I cannot remember. True enough, he looks like rats but dog version rats and 'ang moh' eyes. OMG...adorable enough....The moment I reach the front gate of my house, he did not bark me eventhough this is first time he saw me. I still remember very well his "souvenir"...spraying his urine upwards on my hand. Lolz....

Lobok Zai cuddling around

Sadly to say, good times pass so fast. Two weeks ago, both Xiao Bai and Lobok Zai passed away. On October 6, 2012, a white colour Hilux ran over Lobok Zai and he pass away on the spot. This cute little pup just came to this world in less than half year and now he left us. He left our heart imprinted with his joy. Xiao Hei seemed to reluctant to accept the fact that Lobak Zai die, keep on barking at his carcass until Lobak Zai is buried. 

My mum gave me a call that Xiao Bai was so sick. Both my mum and brother unable to feed medicine to him as we knew Xiao Bai was quite aggressive when taking tablets. This time, Xiao Bai didn't managed to pull through and pass away two days later after Lobak Zai. 

Xiao Bai is really a good dog. Knowingly that he will pass away sooner, he ran out of the house to make sure that he did not die at home. We only manage to find his carcass two days later. If my sister knew this, she will rather skip the whole coming exam to see Xiao Bai. So, we decided to hide the death of Xiao Bai and Lobok Zai from her although we knew we should not hide it in first place. 

I wondered why the lives of both dogs were so short until both of us unable to see them for last time. They are my family, my best friend, mates forever as they are the one who will keep you accompanied all the time. May Xiao Bai and Lobak Zai rest in peace. May God bless them.