Friend of mine

Finally, I have some time left for me to write blogs. I started to love to write blogs as it give you time to reflect your thoughts on all the things that have happen or have passed through over some time.  I used to have a girl friend that used to quite close to me. As time passed by, we have less time to communicate, to talk to each other, and all sorts of things. 

At the beginning, she used to contact me for high tea or something but things changes as we are nor from the same category. What is the " category" I mean? She moved to working class meanwhile I still stay as a student. Things gradually changed and my focus on her becoming lesser and lesser because of she got her partner, good networking and all sorts of social life which I think is enough for her. What I angered most is she started to give empty promises, "FFK" but she never admits. That's fine for me as well. As long as we do not contact that often, that supposedly to be fine. 

I admitted that our perceptions to things have changed. Since she was exposed to real working life, she knows the value of money, reputation, hard work, back-stabbing and many. Reality is really cruel actually. Because of the people surrounding her affecting her all this while, I started to feel the " grey" side of her thoughts. All her thoughts are either "black" or "grey". Looking the world at the pessimistic side. 

I started to feel guilty as I might be one of those bunch of jackass. Cause, I rejected her invitation numerous time. Why I rejected? Because every time when I saw her, I can feel that she is wearing her "mask". Our topic becoming less day by day. Is it my fault when she turned like this? I can see everything is so black for her but how can I help her??Although she has all material possession from small branded items to big items that what normal people could not afford, she looks even pitier every time I see her as "Money can't buy Happiness".  

She seems to turn to the deaf ear when she heard the word "friend" as unbelievable creature. I would love to tell her that all the things that she is enduring or facing now need not to be face by her alone. People surrounding her are willing to help. But to no avail. Nobody is born living alone. 

对我来说~生命的意义

做人有时候很矛盾。小小的一颗心可以守着很多很多的小秘密。想回以前有多么幼稚，做了很多很愚蠢的事情。离开了之后才知道身边的朋友此时还要好，发出真心地来交朋友。

那又何必呢？想想看，此时每个人的生命都很短章。可没有那么多时间。 我终于知道时间的宝贵，错失了，有可能就没有机会了。朋友们，记得不要让任何机会从自己的手中溜走。珍惜眼前人。

Updating my day ^_^

Haa…it have a long time I didn’t keep my blog updated. Last week, I was accepted by a pharmacy nearby my living area to work as part timers to ease some financial burden. Everything was so fine and I started to work the very next day. The workers there are friendly enough, too much to describe them. After all, it is a very pleasant working environment and zero-stress. This is how I met this part time pharmacist who only works on weekdays, night shift.

People there are all friendly enough to me. I admitted, at first, I felt quite boring, but this proves me wrong when all the workers there shared their stories like a family. I felt the warm. The pharmacist guy seems to use all his energy to entertain me (since that is my first day to work there). However, he will be leaving the company within this month.

Feeling that he annoyed me (cause of repetition in same topic), a call from my long lost friend seems to change everything. This guy thought I’m a socialist who have a very good networking…Wakakaka… I do not know whether he is intentionally or unintentionally follow behind me (I guess to hear my conversation) until I ended the call.

The day ends and I called the supervisor to stop my job cause of some problems in between. This guy, who I think is a very good counselor calls me back the very next day to confirm with what’s wrong with me for quitting the job in a sudden. So sweet of him for dropping a call out of sudden.

Am I too perasan or he is too warm? Don’t dare to think of it.

P.S: I think I’m more prone to "too perasan" group ^^