At the beginning, she used to contact me for high tea or something but things changes as we are nor from the same category. What is the " category" I mean? She moved to working class meanwhile I still stay as a student. Things gradually changed and my focus on her becoming lesser and lesser because of she got her partner, good networking and all sorts of social life which I think is enough for her. What I angered most is she started to give empty promises, "FFK" but she never admits. That's fine for me as well. As long as we do not contact that often, that supposedly to be fine.
I admitted that our perceptions to things have changed. Since she was exposed to real working life, she knows the value of money, reputation, hard work, back-stabbing and many. Reality is really cruel actually. Because of the people surrounding her affecting her all this while, I started to feel the " grey" side of her thoughts. All her thoughts are either "black" or "grey". Looking the world at the pessimistic side.
I started to feel guilty as I might be one of those bunch of jackass. Cause, I rejected her invitation numerous time. Why I rejected? Because every time when I saw her, I can feel that she is wearing her "mask". Our topic becoming less day by day. Is it my fault when she turned like this? I can see everything is so black for her but how can I help her??Although she has all material possession from small branded items to big items that what normal people could not afford, she looks even pitier every time I see her as "Money can't buy Happiness".
She seems to turn to the deaf ear when she heard the word "friend" as unbelievable creature. I would love to tell her that all the things that she is enduring or facing now need not to be face by her alone. People surrounding her are willing to help. But to no avail. Nobody is born living alone.
People change~~ especially when dealing and embracing with new environment~~ as time goes by, sure there's some changes~ haizz
ReplyDeleteI always agree "people do change according to environment". I do not mind if they changed better or moving to a better prospect of life. But I could not stand people surrounding me becoming worse, cursing surrounding (in fact, becoming over realistic and materialistic as if money is everything). Until you started to wonder, "Is she my friend that I used to know?".
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