Sentimental Day

the christian hillsong "we are the reason by Avalon" suddenly strike up my mind. Freshly remember that one day, my sister ask me for guidelines to do video of her uniform body and we made up our mine to choose "we are the reason" as the most suitable background music..At first, we thought wanna choose something rocky or latest hit song eg: L.Gaga. Cause latest pop manage to catch attention. But is a big no-no too many old people service.

Inside there, we use a lot old photos which will go through each year till recently. I had discharged from the service for at least 2 years ago but I can feel that the spirit is still strong in me. The moment the photos go through 1 by 1, I recalled a lot of things. The conflicts, nice times, hard time, singing time...I'm assured that some of my happiness come from there.

A strong gratitude with the mixture of missing strike to my heart and I feel touched after watching the video. I wonder what will happen to those bunch of friends who went through the same thing watch this video. How will they feel?  If this video is made specially for me, the tears that come from me is tear of joy.

I admit since I started to stay in hustle bustle city life, I lost my life, happiness and everything. And whatsoever the good virtues you have are shaken by  the REAL-ity life. That is to be materialistic, self-centered, less smile, always correct situation and etc. It looks like the REAL-ity life has taken over your HAPPI-ness life. Or I am still the only one who refused to face reality or still live in past tense?

I miss them but I dare or got no way wanna to look back for them. For the fear of everything...I scare...indeed...