Him

It has been more than one year I didn’t meet him up. Last time, he used to park a special place in my heart even though his bad attitudes. But I like the serious attitude when he was working. It means this guy is very responsible. Is it chemical romance taken place? We do not seem to have common topic, but it seems like I was attracted. Why? Until now, I still can’t figure out the answers.

And I always think that I shall not have this feeling since I do not know whether he has somebody special in his heart. Guess nobody will like over-weight girl (except for certain special case).

Leave without goodbye is the most perfect but heart-aching. I wonder if he has the same feeling. Perhaps not, since he always wander around pretty girls. Hoping my life would be like one of the drama, having the plot and climax like the one in drama, it will be great (watch too many drama, that’s y got imaginary)

Wishing to meet him nearby my college is just a dream and I heard my wake up call. It is the time to wake up after so much time has been wasted into deleting all the memories. It is time to let go. Finally, I can declare that the feeling is vanished and when I saw him online, the feeling of admiring, affection is gone. Hopefully he lives well now and always and it is the time for me to wake up from dreamland.  Happy !!!

Wu Liao

I know why I like Friday the most, because it is the last day of full week study. Undeniably, I like the way that lecturer teach. However, it is very hard to capture all the things that he teaches. High-Mac people mar. The way of thinking also different from others. At least he is the only lecturer who consider on behalf of the Muslims students (Leave us off early)..Nice…

Next week is going to be a quite challenging week for my course mates and me. On the week itself, we have to do one marketing plan presentation and follow on by a class debate. I never have the chance to join debate and it is my first time..Feel very nervous.

Trying to think positively, undeniable that two lecturers themselves are very fussy about everything related to the presentation and the debate. am I able to achieve what they want? I wanna to be perfectionist or high-achiever. Hehe…Do not get coward oooo….and say no to stammering. Bless me that all points and vocabulary flows like water..Hehe

Sentimental Day

the christian hillsong "we are the reason by Avalon" suddenly strike up my mind. Freshly remember that one day, my sister ask me for guidelines to do video of her uniform body and we made up our mine to choose "we are the reason" as the most suitable background music..At first, we thought wanna choose something rocky or latest hit song eg: L.Gaga. Cause latest pop manage to catch attention. But is a big no-no too many old people service.

Inside there, we use a lot old photos which will go through each year till recently. I had discharged from the service for at least 2 years ago but I can feel that the spirit is still strong in me. The moment the photos go through 1 by 1, I recalled a lot of things. The conflicts, nice times, hard time, singing time...I'm assured that some of my happiness come from there.

A strong gratitude with the mixture of missing strike to my heart and I feel touched after watching the video. I wonder what will happen to those bunch of friends who went through the same thing watch this video. How will they feel?  If this video is made specially for me, the tears that come from me is tear of joy.

I admit since I started to stay in hustle bustle city life, I lost my life, happiness and everything. And whatsoever the good virtues you have are shaken by  the REAL-ity life. That is to be materialistic, self-centered, less smile, always correct situation and etc. It looks like the REAL-ity life has taken over your HAPPI-ness life. Or I am still the only one who refused to face reality or still live in past tense?

I miss them but I dare or got no way wanna to look back for them. For the fear of everything...I scare...indeed...

A reminder to me

Today, the lesson went on as normal.It seems like I just get rid some of the stones and burden in my heart. That's call responsibility. For this semester, lecturers give us a lot assignment. Can't blame them. It is for our own good sake. Cause I took up too many subjects, that's why the assignments loaded with endless timeline...

However, I feel quite satisfies cause I almost finish half of the overall subject's assignments. I know more will coming on, I need to get myself motivated so that I have the power and the will to complete everything. Hope I blink my eyes and it already September. Then it will be very fine for me cause everything will come to the end.

And I wish to change my stammer and ever pausing explanation method. Marks will be deducted and am really impressed with my classmates who manage to present so fluently (although they said they're not).Need to change before I went back to working industries.

Today, I just realized that every people is selfish...They said they did not do anything, but the moment teacher wanted to see something, they manage to show at least something, their presentations...So, what does their "Haven or Didn't do" mean?

I want, want and still want to complete my plan within a week. No more rushing work for me...I do not wish to burn midnight oil again at last minute...Even I myself also cannot convince myself that working last minute work can get some sympathy from others. Cause I don't. No sympathy for those who did not take any initiatives to work at least something or finish within the limited time.

However, there are nice jokes as souvenir for me. When I was on my way back to KL Sentral, got one guy who walk behind me suddenly by pass me and telling me that my trousers is falling. hahaha...How come my trousers will fall and I do not know it?Hmm....Should I answer it is low cut?Haha....Since Ramadhan already started, of course the train will be more pack than usual. It is a very good chance for muscle building and the packest train ever...Haha...Nice idea from nearby college students....

Haiz....

The day just over...Hmm...I just study for four days per week..But it seems like tired like ever...and of course, gain a lot of weight...OMG...having good meals every day? No way.....having Hi-carb food leh...and sit still at least 6 hours per day....tak gemuk pun hairan lorr...Face is getting rounder and rounder...every time say wanna on diet and keep  fit, every time not succeed...Yerr...

Presentation is coming....almost all formal wear cannot wear pulak...yerr....

今日日记

天气：下雨天

今天，我纵欲成功交了两份Assignment。心情觉得轻松了许多。身为一位大学生，熬夜时难免的。觉得我的黑眼圈越来越像熊猫。可是我没那只熊猫可爱啊。。哈哈。。。他是“人见人爱”可是我就“越看越像 『鬼』 啊。还是走到哪里睡到哪里。有一点佩服我自己，可以在不同样 “Posture” 睡着。幸运没人认得我啊。。

P.S:努力的吧说有功课做完。加油！！

想法

今天，我的心情觉得非常糟糕。今天早上还好好的。有说有笑的，心情还不错。可是一面对到市区的压力，觉得好累也好无奈。疲累得我又应该这样想棒发让自己更加快乐呢？觉得老实不想回到家中。回头看，我以及很久没寻找到我要的快乐和娱乐。看来，我的人生过得很悲伤。希望，我不会让同样的事情发生在我的生上了吧。还是，我太可望有人来关心我？想太多了吧。。哈哈哈

找朋友？大家过着大家的生活啊.。。说有的朋友都脱离了。我想，要为此“情”不管是爱情，亲情或是友情是非常不容易。

我希望我的朋友们可以得到最美好的祝福和喜悦。尤其是我的好友，我最希望她可以快点找到她的另外一半。妳要幸福哦。。。