What's wrong with me??

“Bad Boy” a song sung by A-Mei, a Taiwanese artist is true enough to show that girls are more likely to attract to bad guys rather than good ones. Undeniably, they are really good in catching our attention. I spotted him for some time but not really have a good chance to start conversation with him. He looks so shy and quiet when I first met him. And I was proved that I was wrong until that day he fooled me in front of his colleagues..Hmmm…Sure angry larr + so embarrassing…I can’t work properly after that… But, he laugh and laugh and still laughing for my “serious+naïve”..Arghh…Then he asked his colleagues to ask quite a few questions and I can say most of it, I do not have the intention to answer honestly…

Few days later (still laughing), calling me again..Become phobia liao to see him. Heart beat becoming faster and if possible, I would like to avoid him. What’s wrong with me??

What can i do for you?

家家有本难念的经。I agreed with this statement a lot. Today, I received call from my aunty asking me for information about her daughter’s education. From her voice, I can hear that her tone was sad and crying. But I can’t help much since her daughter refused to get help. I feel so guilty and pity on behalf of my aunty. It seems like the children does not understand the situation that faced by their parents.

Felt so terrible, from my aunt tone, I can feel her shaking tone that deeply begging for help from others. Thank God the little girl is not my sister, or else, she will learn a good lesson from me. It seems like she didn’t understand that the money that her parents are earning are hard earn “血汗钱”. Maybe she will start to understand that once she working in real working industry. Why don’t she ask help from my uncle to advice her daughter leh. 

Life Routine

Feeling so relieved since the presentation today is done. This power mad teacher is picking on us every time with i do not know why she have to do so. Coming early to class today waiting for my turn to present, I can see that most of them looks tired. Since one of my course is saying that she is tired, I was backing up by saying that's why we are sleepy. This guy, I do not know what's wrong with him, just interrupted. Everybody is sleepy not just you...What's wrong with him?

Of course ppl will feel tired since everybody is doing last minute work.  Sorry to say, deserve it too...I know my presentation is not perfect since I do not know why this girl come out with some funny question that makes me answer so stupidly.OMG!!

Pets

I have two lovely dogs which I loved very muchie. Yesterday, when I read newspaper about "shar pei" dog, it loooks so so so cute and make me wanna adapt them.Too bad, I do not have the ability to do so..

I have to say I love pets very much until my parents told me that one day to open pets centre one day and use all my money to take care them...Bankrupt la me...

Dogs are really human's best friend, they manage to keep their master happy, sophisticated, sometimes angry and missed them deeply when they are gone. Their loyalty, of course  more than any other human being. They take it as their duty to keep their master entertained.

A movie by Richard Gere talking about a loyal dog make me cried and sobbing like a child. Really a touching movie. Worth a while to watch it and I can feel the heartache and the loyalty behind the movie. In fact, it really happens before...OMG...

Him

It has been more than one year I didn’t meet him up. Last time, he used to park a special place in my heart even though his bad attitudes. But I like the serious attitude when he was working. It means this guy is very responsible. Is it chemical romance taken place? We do not seem to have common topic, but it seems like I was attracted. Why? Until now, I still can’t figure out the answers.

And I always think that I shall not have this feeling since I do not know whether he has somebody special in his heart. Guess nobody will like over-weight girl (except for certain special case).

Leave without goodbye is the most perfect but heart-aching. I wonder if he has the same feeling. Perhaps not, since he always wander around pretty girls. Hoping my life would be like one of the drama, having the plot and climax like the one in drama, it will be great (watch too many drama, that’s y got imaginary)

Wishing to meet him nearby my college is just a dream and I heard my wake up call. It is the time to wake up after so much time has been wasted into deleting all the memories. It is time to let go. Finally, I can declare that the feeling is vanished and when I saw him online, the feeling of admiring, affection is gone. Hopefully he lives well now and always and it is the time for me to wake up from dreamland.  Happy !!!

Wu Liao

I know why I like Friday the most, because it is the last day of full week study. Undeniably, I like the way that lecturer teach. However, it is very hard to capture all the things that he teaches. High-Mac people mar. The way of thinking also different from others. At least he is the only lecturer who consider on behalf of the Muslims students (Leave us off early)..Nice…

Next week is going to be a quite challenging week for my course mates and me. On the week itself, we have to do one marketing plan presentation and follow on by a class debate. I never have the chance to join debate and it is my first time..Feel very nervous.

Trying to think positively, undeniable that two lecturers themselves are very fussy about everything related to the presentation and the debate. am I able to achieve what they want? I wanna to be perfectionist or high-achiever. Hehe…Do not get coward oooo….and say no to stammering. Bless me that all points and vocabulary flows like water..Hehe

Sentimental Day

the christian hillsong "we are the reason by Avalon" suddenly strike up my mind. Freshly remember that one day, my sister ask me for guidelines to do video of her uniform body and we made up our mine to choose "we are the reason" as the most suitable background music..At first, we thought wanna choose something rocky or latest hit song eg: L.Gaga. Cause latest pop manage to catch attention. But is a big no-no too many old people service.

Inside there, we use a lot old photos which will go through each year till recently. I had discharged from the service for at least 2 years ago but I can feel that the spirit is still strong in me. The moment the photos go through 1 by 1, I recalled a lot of things. The conflicts, nice times, hard time, singing time...I'm assured that some of my happiness come from there.

A strong gratitude with the mixture of missing strike to my heart and I feel touched after watching the video. I wonder what will happen to those bunch of friends who went through the same thing watch this video. How will they feel?  If this video is made specially for me, the tears that come from me is tear of joy.

I admit since I started to stay in hustle bustle city life, I lost my life, happiness and everything. And whatsoever the good virtues you have are shaken by  the REAL-ity life. That is to be materialistic, self-centered, less smile, always correct situation and etc. It looks like the REAL-ity life has taken over your HAPPI-ness life. Or I am still the only one who refused to face reality or still live in past tense?

I miss them but I dare or got no way wanna to look back for them. For the fear of everything...I scare...indeed...